Page 6 of Tattered on My Sleeve (Lost Kings MC 4)
Yeah, maybe a walk down bad memory lane is what my brother needs to get his head in the right space for tonight. âBecause they buy everything we grow.â
He grunts at me.
"And when we stopped moving stuff for the Mexicans and growing our own shit, they stuck with us." I remind him.
He nods and finally glances at me, a wry smile twisting his mouth up. "Still doesnât explain why that mouthy little punk insists I be there for every damn drop."
"I think heâs got a crush on you, prez."
He doesnât seem to find that as amusing as I do.
"So whatâs the story with the uptight lawyer chick? How was she?" Nope, by the look on his face, heâs not in a joking mood. If I had to guessâheâs considering dismembering me and scattering my body parts around the clubâs property.
"Do you have some sort of death wish you need to discuss with me?" Yup. My brotherâs got murder on his mind.
Where exactly does he see things going with this chick? "She your olâ lady now?"
Heâs quick to answer. "Yeah, sheâs gonna be."
I swallow down the first thing I want to say, which isâAre you fucking serious? "Wow, thatâs big, prez. We donât got any olâ ladies right now. So thatâs huge," I say instead.
âIâm sure Trinity wouldnât mind you making her an olâ lady,â he says, just to be a dick.
What can I say? We fucked up good there. Sheâs never going to forgive me, and I canât forgive her. âThatâs never going to happen, prez.â
âWhy? Sheâs a good girl. Sheâs gorgeous. Knows when to keep her mouth shut. Knows her way around the club.â
He just had to say that, didnât he? I know he didnât mean it the way I took it, but it still stings, especially after last night. âThatâs the problem. She knows her way around the club a little too well.â
âOh please, youâve fucked every skank within a hundred-mile radius, so whatâs the difference?â Heâs right. But none of those skanks were her sisters. Well, I guess the other club girls are⦠sorta.
Whatever. This isnât the first time Rockâs expressed his strong opinion on this subject. Heâs very much a Whatâs good for the goose type of fellow. But since he apparently plans to make a total outsider his olâ lady, Iâm of the mindset he should take his self-righteous attitude and shove it up his ass. Iâm about to say so, when Trinityâs voice comes out of nowhere.
âThe difference is, I wouldnât be his old lady if he got down on both knees and begged in front of the entire club.â The hurt in her voice shames the shit out of me.
âFuck, Trinny. I should make you wear a damn bell around your neck,â Rock teases.
She walks around the corner with a pained smile. Wonât even look at me. I grind my teeth so hard my jaw aches.
âThanks for sticking up for me, Rock,â she says softly, still not glancing my way.
Rock holds out his arms to her, and she hurries over, throwing a nasty glare my way. He gives her a hug and tries to make her feel better. âYouâre a big help to the club, Trinny, and we all appreciate what you do.â
âI know thatâs not true. But I know you appreciate it and thatâs all that matters.â
Rock pats her hip, and white, ragey spots spar with my eyes. I donât know why. I hate how tight the two of them are. Always have. They share secrets the rest of us know nothing about, and it drives me nuts. She was mine first. It should have been me she confided in.
âYou headed out, babe?â Rock asks as they both continue to ignore me.
âKitchenâs all cleaned up for now. Thereâs still some girls inside, so if it gets messed up again, theyâll take care of it.â
âGood deal. You coming back later?â
Finally, she looks at me, and I prepare to apologize for my shitty comments.
âNo. Iâve got a date tonight,â she announces.
Fuck this shit.
I donât actually have a date. But pissing Wrath off feels pretty fucking good after the bullshit heâs been tossing at me all morning. After the crack about my name in front of Rockâs girl, I gave serious consideration to returning from the kitchen with a knife to slit his throat.
And Teller. Well, at least I know what he really thinks of me. I hope he had fun last night because thatâs the last time Iâm crawling into bed with him for a long fucking time.
As usual, Rock stands up for me. And not just because he doesnât want them saying that shit in front of his woman. Because he doesnât tolerate any disrespect toward me or any of the girls. He knows full well what goes on in his clubhouse, but heâs never once made me feel like shit about it.
Nor has he ever made a move on me.
In eight years, he hasnât once treated me as anything other than a friend under his protection.
In return, thereâs nothing I wonât do for him.
Not since my father was alive have I trusted a man the way I trust Rock.
For a brief time, I thought I could trust Wrath that way. Look where that got me.
The door slams shut after Wrath stomps off like a pissed-off toddler, and I canât help laughing.
âThat was fun.â
Rock smirks at me. "Thanks, babe. Heâs had it coming all morning."
Yup. Definitely caught that vibe. "I like Hope. Will we be seeing more of her around here?"
Rock seems pleased. "Thatâs the plan."
"Good. Itâs about time you find the right woman. You do so much for everyone. You deserve to be happy too." He seems embarrassed by my words, but I mean every one of them. Iâve seen Rock with an endless parade of dancers and club girls. Iâve never seen him with a civilian woman. Iâve never seen him this at ease and happy either. That woman better be prepared, because Rockâs not letting her go anytime soon.
"Think you can show her the ropes? Ease her in slow?" he asks.
Iâm going to have my work cut out for me on that front. "Of course. You know Iâll do anything for you, prez." My first priorityâs gonna be keeping her away from Wrath. I know him well enough to know heâs not going to tolerate an outsider real well. Especially one so tight with his president.
I keep that to myself, though. That falls under the category of club business, which is not my business.
Speaking of business people shouldnât meddle in. "Donât worry about Wrath and me. Itâs never going to happen. Iâm over it," I say, just in case Rock gets the urge to play matchmaker again.
He sighs and rakes his fingers through his hair. "Trinityâ"
Nope. Not happening. I canât tolerate pity from him. "Seriously, Rock. Iâm fine."
The only thing on my mind on the long drive to our drop-off with the Green Street Crew is Rockâs unease before we left the clubhouse.
Motherfucker has one hell of an intuition. There was a brief time when he held my position in the club. His instincts have saved our lives more than once over the years.
So if Rockâs uneasy, Iâm anxious and alert for trouble. Even more than I usually am.
Riverwalk Park is deserted. My gaze sweeps the shadows as we roll in. No hidden cars tucked in any corners, nothing. The park is serene and empty.
While Rock makes small talk with GSCâs shotcaller, Gunner, I continue inspecting the area. Any couples looking for a quiet place to park and fuck tonight will be redirected elsewhere.
Thumping bass music from an incoming SUV gets me trigger twitchy, and I keep my hand on my piece while I walk over to Rock.
Itâs just the other two dipshits from Gunnerâs crew. Bunch of useless fucking twats, every one of them. Well, the nice, fat duffel bag of cash is useful and the only reason weâre here.
After we do our exchangeâweed for cashâGunner and Rock step aside to talk. This annoys the fuck out of me. These drops should be quick. Get in. Get out. The longer we stand around scratching our asses, the more risks we take.
My pointâs proven about two seconds later when the distinct sound of Harleys roars into the park.
âWrap
it up,â Rock shouts, and thatâs my cue to get on my hog and lead us the fuck out.
But I donât even get to start her up.
The bikes come into view, two punks who have no clue how to control the machines theyâre riding or the guns theyâre shooting.
One of them aims at Gunner. I couldnât give two fucks about the punk, but my presidentâs standing right next to him.
I launch myself at the kid with the gun, punching him clean off the bike.
Somewhere, thereâs a god who favors angry biker thugs, because this is exactly what I need tonight.
The thrill of adrenaline rushes through me. I love to fight, but while I get my kicks by sparring with my brothers from time to time and the occasional underground fight, I always hold back so I donât kill someone.
I donât have to hold back this time.
Fuck yes.
Blood pounds through me as I land one blow to the fuckerâs face. I drill a second jab into his gut.
The punk doesnât do much in the way of fighting back. Kinda takes all the fun out of it for me. I still punch him a few more times. For fuckâs sake, he shot at us. Heâs earned every hit.
Barely out of breath, I stand but keep my foot on the kidâs chest so I can keep an eye on Rock. Heâs no slouch in the fighting department. Trained him myself. Heâs a big fuckerânot as big as me, but then not many men are. One deadly motherfucker too, but he has an incredible amount of self-control, something Iâve always lacked.
I laugh as the kid lands a few hits, doubting Rock even noticed. When the punkâs down, Rock hauls him up. I remove my foot and pick up my prize too.
âWhat the fuck do you think youâre doing?â Rock shouts at the kid who reanimates enough to mouth off and spit at Rock.
Aw, buddy, big mistake.
Rock plants his fist in the kidâs gut hard enough to make him puke.
Gunnerânot sure what he was doing the whole time we were taking care of this mess for himâputs his gun to the kid on the ground and starts questioning him. Kidâs in no condition to answer.
Mine is, and I give him a shake to get him talking.
âYou punks lift these from someone?â Rock asks, gesturing at the downed Harleys.
"Yes! We picked them up outside the Green Room."
Holy fuck, thatâs Viper territory. What the fuck did we step in tonight?
"Are you two suicidal or plain stupid?" Rock asks. Damn good question.
Gunner moves like heâs going to shoot them.
Rock halts him with a hand on his arm, lowering the weapon. "Not so fast."
"Grab some zip ties and a Sharpie," he tells Bricks.
Personally, I prefer to shoot them and dump them in the Hudson River. Itâs only an additional ten feet from the spot we drag them to.
We tie them to a tree and leave a message for the Vipers when they find them.
Whatever. âShould do,â I say.
After Rock finishes with Gunner, he sends our crew on their way. One look at him and I see heâs still lit up from the fight.
âWhere you going, prez?â Our usual routine after something like this used to be hittinâ up Crystal Ball, finding a couple dancers, and fucking the living daylights out of them.
Rock scowls at me. He doesnât even have to answer. I know exactly where heâs going. âHopeâs,â he answers.
Ding! Ding! Ding!
"Tell her I said hi."
He flips me off.
Together we leave the park. At the exit, he stops close enough to tap his knuckles against mine. âShiny side up, brother. You did fuckinâ great tonight,â he shouts over the combined rumble of our engines. Then heâs gone.
I take the long way back to the clubhouse so I can replay everything that happened and see where I fucked up. What a bizarre night. Fuckinâ 18th Street Boyz. Worthless punks. The clubâs been through so much bad shit together that the idea of being taken out by some young thug flashing around a gun he doesnât know how to use seems almost fitting.
Trinityâs Jeep clears the gate ahead of me. Back from her date early I guess.
I hang back and ride up the driveway slow.
Suddenly, the events of the day sink into me, and Iâm just bone-weary tired. Got no fight left in me. I back my bike into its spot and wait for Trinity to go inside first. She hasnât opened her car door yet. Maybe sheâs trying to wait me out? Tired of fucking around, I get off my bike and head inside. Behind me, the soft crunch of her smaller feet hurrying over the gravel makes me pause and hold the door open for her.
âThanks,â she says in a breathless rush.
Once weâre both inside, I stop and give her a once-over. Sheâs dressed in jeans and a plain T-shirt and carrying a backpack. Not sure what the fuck kind of date sheâs been on.
âDate over early?â I ask with a sneer.
Her startled, wide-eyed expression makes me feel like shit. âWhat?â
âYou said you had a date tonight.â I jerk my chin at her backpack. âWere you planning to spend the night?â
Her eyes gloss over with tears. Holy fuck. Why canât I learn to keep my mouth shut? âShit, Trinity. Iâm just messing with you,â I say, reaching out to give her an awkward hug.
âI didnât have a date,â she mutters.
Thank fuck.
This particular Saturday night, the clubhouse is quiet. Usually is nights we have a drop-off. Never know whatâll go down, and brothers need to be alert and availableânot drunk and elbow deep in pussyâin case shit goes bad. Sparkyâs waiting in the living room, and I flash him a thumbs-up sign. He grins and heads back downstairs.
âWhereâs everyone else?â Trinity asks.
âRock took off for Hopeâs place.â
Trinity smiles at that. âSheâs nice. Iâm happy for prez.â
I grunt because Iâm not so sure about that chick and how good sheâs going to be for the club.
âRest of the guys had the van, so Iâm assuming they stopped to get dinner or something.â
âYou hungry?â she asks.
After the shitty way I acted this morning, Iâm shocked sheâs even speaking to me, so I donât answer right away. I mean, she feeds me breakfast and stuff all the time. But she never offers. I show up in the dining room with everyone else, and she throws whatever sheâs made at me. Just as she does for all the guys.
âSure.â
I follow her down the hallway. âI gotta drop this in my room.â I follow her to her door, but she only opens it only wide enough to set her bag inside.
âAnyone ever been in there besides you?â I tease.
âYou know the answer to that.â
Yes, I do. When we first moved out here, Rock made it abundantly clear none of us were ever to enter her room unless expressly invited by her.
Yes, thatâs exactly the way he put it.
Chuckling, I follow her to the dining room. Itâs late, so Iâm not expecting her to cook for me or anything. Which is good, because she only sets out cereal and milk.
âThanks, babe.â
We eat in silence, but itâs nice being together without all the extra hostility. Suddenly, Iâm feeling anxious. When the guys return, all of this niceness between us will disappear. And I really donât want it to. I like being alone with her. This house is always full of people; itâs easy for us to avoid each other. I canât ask her up to my room without her getting the wrong idea. Sheâll never invite me into her room. The war room has a couch and TV set up. Maybe I can talk her into watching a movie with me.
Excited about this plan, I clean up after us and hustle her out of the kitchen. âWanna watch a movie?â
She gives me the strangest look. âOkay.â
When she heads into the main room, I pull out my keys and open up the war room.
âI thoughtââ
âYouâre with me. Itâs fine.â
Her eyes dart around the room, taking in the table where we hold church every week and anytime something urgent comes up that r
equires a vote.
âWhich one is yours?â she asks.
I point it out. The chair at the right hand of the presidentâs throne.
âYeah.â She nods absently.
Not sure why sheâs so solemn all of a sudden, I nudge her to the couch. She tosses me a curious look, like maybe I brought her in here for another reason.
âWhat are you in the mood for?â I ask with a nod at the television.
Her eyes flick to the screen as I flip it on and key into the on-demand screen.
âSomething scary,â she answers.
Iâm definitely on board with that. From memory, I know she jumps at every little thing.
Maybe sheâll jump right into my lap if Iâm lucky.
Eight years agoâ¦
For the third night in a row, I found myself at the Blue Fox Tavern, watching Trinity. All day, Iâd told myself I wasnât showing up again. But there I was.
I was so fucked.
She kept glancing at me shyly all night.
Before Trinity, Iâd never considered myself an ass man. The snug black jeans she had her perfect little heart-shaped butt stuffed into turned me into a believer. She kept bending over to get stuff from the lower shelves. Once or twice, she tossed a look over her shoulder and caught me staring. A blush stained her cheeks.
Tonight, sheâd abandoned her trusty kicks in favor of a pair of fuck-me pumps. I really wanted to know who she was so dressed-up for.
If it was another guy, the possessive, ragey beast in me wouldnât handle it well.
The rest of our date at Fletcher Park had been perfect. After fucking ourselves into exhaustion, sheâd fallen asleep in my arms. When the first tendrils of daybreak curled into the sky, I nudged her awake and helped her dress. We watched the sun come up together, the awed expression on her face no match for a simple sunrise. We hurried back to my bike and took off before park security caught wind of us.
Iâd planned to drop her off at her apartment, but she invited me inside. For some reason, I couldnât say no to this chick and hated being away from her. We slept until noon, when I got a call from Rock demanding I get my ass to Crystal Ball.
I sent her a text to explain, but maybe she was annoyed to wake up and find me gone again.