Page 12 of Strength from Loyalty (Lost Kings MC 3)
Her delicate phrasing pulls a dark chuckle from me. âYeah, I think thatâs also why Iâm feeling like shit. I thought I was always clear, but she had this idea, I guessâ¦â
âUh, I canât speak for Inga, but I donât think most women can separate sex and emotion, even if they tell themselves they can.â
âThat doesnât make me feel any better.â
She shrugs. âToo bad.â
Yeah, Iâve definitely beat this conversation into the ground. But it felt good to get it off my chest. Itâs not really something I would discuss with any of the guys. I lean over and kiss her forehead. âThanks for listening to that, baby. Iâm sure itâs the last thing you felt like hearing.â
She pats my chest in response. I canât believe how kindhearted my girl is. Every other woman Iâve ever known would have used that conversation as an excuse to tear Inga down or bitch me out. Not Hope. Iâm a lucky fuck.
Incessant buzzing reaches me from the floor. âMy phone, babe.â
âGo ahead.â
Crawling out of the bed, I dig around âtil I find my jeans and dump my cell phone into my hand. âItâs Wrath. He was worried about you,â I explain.
âWhat?â I snap into the phone as I settle back into the bed. I hold the phone away from my ear so Hope can hear him.
âWhere are you, dick?â
âAt Hopeâs.â
He blows out a relieved breath. âShe okay?â
âYes.â
âAre you guys okay?â
Next to me, Hope sighs, âAwww.â
I run my hand over her hair. âYeah, weâre good.â
âAre you coming back up tonight?â
I glance at Hope and quirk my eyebrow. Iâm leaving it up to her.
âYeah, weâll be up in a little while,â she answers.
âOh, for fuckâs sake, are you going to turn into one of those annoying couples who answers every phone call together?â Wrath bitches.
âBye, Wrath.â
Hope grabs my phone and ends the call for me.
Eventually, she rolls over and clicks on a light. Blinking from the glare, I donât see the room right away. But when things finally come into focus, Iâm shocked.
âYouâve been packing?â
A nervous smile flickers over her lips. âWell, we talked about moving in together⦠and I just thought it was time to get rid of some things. Itâs harder than I thought, though.â
Her hands flutter in the air as sheâs talking. Even flustered and rumpled, sheâs effortlessly beautiful. My eyes zero in on her slender fingers and notice how naked her ring finger looks.
Exquisite Baubles isnât used to having bikers in their delicate, prissy store. The unease rolling off the sales guy doesnât concern me, though.
Iâm here to get my girl an engagement ring. This place is supposed to have the best jewelry designer in the area. My girlâs getting nothing less than the best.
So I put up with the attitude.
For now.
Unfolding the drawing Bricks sketched out for me, I lay it out on the crystal-clear glass counter. âCan you do it or not?â
The sales guyâs eyes bug out. âLet me get Arthur.â
Arthur reminds me a bit of Sparky. Not that heâs high, but he clearly doesnât like being taken away from his precious stones and metals.
He picks up the drawing and studies it. âThe top here, this is the engagement ring?â
Ah, he gets it. âYes.â
âClever. Very fitting for a queen.â
Right. Essentially, Hopeâs my queen, and I want something that reflects that without being gaudy or obnoxious.
Arthur doesnât care about the patches on my cut, my inked skin, my grease-stained jeans, or anything else. He swings the counter door open and beckons me inside. âCome.â
I follow him into a small room where he starts tapping information into a computer. He scans in the drawing, does some more tapping, and then hands me a printout.
Heâs made a few changes, but since they only enhance the design, I nod.
âItâs intricate work, so it will take me some time.â
Thatâs not what I want to hear. âI need it as soon as possible.â
Arthur studies me for a moment. âHow long have you known her?â
âAlmost three years.â
âWhen did you know she was the one?â
âThe day I met her. Itâs been a long, hard, twisted road to get here.â
Arthur nods. He scribbles down a number on the top of the page. âLeave a fifty percent deposit with Kenny up front. Iâll start working on it today, but it could be a couple weeks. I must order a few things to complete it, and I have no control over my suppliers.â
I certainly understand that.
âLeave a number where I can reach you.â
The amount isnât as high as I expected, so Iâm prepared to pay in full today. I count out the bills for Kenny, whose eyes are big and much more pleasant than earlier. Arthur wanders back out to see how weâre doing. He nods at the pile of cash.
âI need it soon. But it needs to be perfect. You feel me, Arthur?â
âYes, sir.â
âGood.â We quickly shake on the deal, and I head out.
As soon as I get back to the clubhouse, I tuck the drawing and receipt into my locked cabinet in the war room. Not that I think Hope has ever snooped through my stuff upstairs. But it would be the worst possible timing if she decided to get curious now and ruin my surprise.
Since I gave her the property patch, I donât think she expects anything else. Everyone has explained that in our world, itâs as good as a ring. Even though I swore I would never get married again, that was before I knew Hope. Although itâs a big fucking deal to me, the property patch isnât enough. I need to own her in every single way available. It doesnât escape my notice how I never offered my first wife a property patch. She got the ring, nothing more.
Hope will have everything.
Itâs going to be torture waitinâ for that ring to be done. While Iâm waiting, thereâs other things I need to get in place. I think I know the exact way I want to propose to her.
I want it to be perfect.
Didnât give it a lot of thought the first time, but I am now.
Iâm not sure why Iâm dwelling on my failed marriage. It was a lifetime ago. I was a kid who had no fucking clue. What if Iâd met Hope back then? She would have been eighteen, right before she met Clay. Would stupid twenty-three-year-old me have recognized what a treasure she was? Would she have had the strength back then to stand by me when I went to prison? Would we have survived all the bullshit the club went through when Wrath, Z, and I took over?
I donât know the answers to any of these pointless questions. All I do know is weâre right where we should be.
The rest is irrelevant.
âHey, feel like going for a hike in the woods?â Rock asks out of the blue one afternoon.
Weâve been spending more time up at the clubhouse lately. Well, actually for a week or so, we were snowed in. Since the courts never seem to closeâeven for piles of snowâI had to ask Adam to cover the few cases I had. That certainly set me back a bit, but it doesnât bother me like it might have a couple months ago. Maybe thereâs something wrong with me, but Iâm very content right where I am. I canât say it wasnât amusing to watch Z and Hoot try to keep up with all the snow we got pummeled with either.
Since the big norâeaster, itâs been cold but sunny, melting away a lot of the snow.
Glancing up, I crane my neck to see out the window and shiver. âNo. Itâs freakinâ cold out,â I finally answer Rockâs question.
âBabe, itâs supposed to be in the forties today.â
âYeah. Cold.â Taking a closer look at Rock, I can tell heâs frustrated. âOkay. I didnât bring any hiking boots up with me, though.â
His mouth pops into a grin as he strides over to his closet. When he comes out, heâs carrying a large bo
x, which he sets at the end of my lounge chair.
My eyes skip from the box to his face. âYou bought me hiking boots?â
âYup.â
Odd, but sweet. Even stranger, he presents me with a thick pair of woolly socks.
Sensing heâs up to something, I keep an eye on him while I get ready.
Once weâre properly bundled up, we trudge through the light layer of snow thatâs more crunchy than powdery this late in the winter.
Rock stops near a scattering of pine trees that looks very familiar.
âItâs a little cold for sex in the woods, Rock.â
He snorts, and we tread a bit farther before he stops again. Iâm not sure what Iâm supposed to be seeing, but a large area has been marked off with pink surveyor tape.
A very large area.
âWhat do you think?â
âWhat am I looking at?â
âBuilding site. Our building site. I want to build us a house here.â
I suck in a deep breath and immediately start choking on the cold air.
Rock chuckles and pats my back. âCareful, baby doll.â
âI love it,â I finally manage.
Some of the tension heâd been carrying on the way up here drains out of him. âGood. Weâve got a few months before we can begin, so thereâs plenty of time to figure out what we want.â
âOkay.â
âWeâll have to spend more time at the clubhouse until itâs finished.â
I cock my head to the side, inviting him to explain.
âIâm thinking of renting my house to Bricks and Winter. Give them a chance to save up and buy it in a couple years. Got the fenced-in yard and enough bedrooms for their kids. Plus, itâs in the same school district Bricksâs kids are in, so it should make things easier on him.â
Inside, I melt at how much thought Rockâs put into this. âWhere are you going to work on your bikes?â
âThe club owns that vacant piece of property next to Crystal Ball. Iâm thinkinâ of opening a shop there eventually. But for now, Iâll keep doing it out of my garage. Gonna have Bricks help with the more elaborate paint jobs.â
âThat sounds great.â
âSo do you like this spot? We can pick out another one if you want. Got more than enough land.â
Taking in the view, I picture what it would be like to live out here. Itâs peaceful, and if I ever get bored, the clubhouse is a shortâ
Next to me, Rock is suddenly on one knee.
And my hand is in his hand.
âRock?â
âHope, I waited a long time for you. I fall more in love with your beauty, kindness, loyalty, and courage every day. When we spend our first night in the house weâre going to build here, I want you to be my wife.â
Holy shit. When he explained the property patch meant wife status in his world, I figured that was his way of telling me he didnât want to get married again. Yet here he isâholy shit!
âRockââ
âBabe, the only word I want to hear is yes.â
âYes! Of course, yes!â
He drops his gaze to the ground and lets out a barely audible sigh. I canât stop the tears rolling down my cheeks as he places the most beautiful ring on my finger. Iâve never seen anything quite like it. The intricate setting looks like a small crown, showcased by a diamond-encrusted interwoven band. The stones sparkle and dance in the sunlight streaming through the trees as I hold out my hand and wiggle my fingers.
Lifting himself from the ground, he sweeps me into his arms and seals his mouth over mine for a burning kiss. When we part, Iâm dizzy, and one thought dominates. âRock, please let me say something.â
His eyes narrow, but he nods.
âYou remember the doctor told me I might not be able to have children. If I canât give you a family, are you going to end up hating me?â
Confusion that morphs into anger settles over his face. âHope, listen carefully to me. If my sole goal in life was to reproduce, I could have done it a hundred times over by now.â
âThatâs not as romantic as you think.â
He shakes off my attempt at a joke. âI love you. All I need is you. We are perfect together. Weâll figure this out like weâve figured out everything else. Together. You want kids, weâll figure it out. I hear science is pretty amazing these days. You donât want kids, Iâm perfectly content with it just being the two of us for the rest of our lives. You are more important to me than any potential future children.â He gestures back the way we came, toward the clubhouse. âBesides, we already have a houseful of kids to look after.â
A very unladylike sound erupts from me, somewhere between a snort and a sob. In my wildest fantasies, I never could have come up with a man like Rock. The thought and care he put into proposing astounds me. His words. The beautiful ring that he undoubtedly had specially designed. Every detail. I canât evenâ
His fingers settle under my chin, tipping up my head, interrupting my thoughts. âAre we clear on this?â
Sinking my teeth into my bottom lip, I nod my head. How did I get so lucky?
âDonât make that face at me, Hope. Even though itâs so cold my balls have crawled back up inside my body, I could pin you to that tree and fuck you senseless right about now.â
âThat is some lovely imagery, Rochlan,â I manage before falling into a fit of giggles.
Weâre engaged.
The hike back to the clubhouse is really more of a sprint. Hope wasnât kidding when she said it was too cold for sex in the woods. The thought of it shrivels my dick. But the thought of getting her alone in our room and stripping her down âtil sheâs wearing nothing but my ring keeps my feet moving over the rough ground.
Her excited yes plays over and over in my head.
Breathless, we tumble into the parking area around the clubhouse. Hopeâs giggles twist my own mouth up. Snagging her around the waist, I tug her against me for a kiss.
Breaking away, she runs her hands through my hair, staring up at me. The smileâs gone, but thereâs a gleam of mischief in her eyes thatâs hard to miss.
âWhen do you want to get married?â she asks.
Right this second.
âWhenever you want,â I answer.
âWhere?â
That oneâs easier, because as long as Hopeâs at the end of the aisle, I donât give two fucks where we do it.
âAnywhere you want.â
Her fingers lace behind my neck, but her gaze drifts around the woods behind us. âHow about here? I like the idea of getting married outside, close to nature,â she says with a dreamy tilt to her lips.
Thatâs fine with me. I even know the perfect spot on the property. But as seamlessly as my girl has accepted everything about me and my world, I wonder if she knows what sheâs asking.
âBabe, you sure you want your family and friends at a white-trash biker-hillbilly wedding in the woods?â
Pain slashes across her face, and too late, I realize what an awful thing that was to say to her. Her arms tighten around my neck, forcing me down to her level. âYou are my family.â She jerks her head toward the clubhouse. âYou and your club of delinquent, loyal biker brothers are my family. Anyone who doesnât like it isnât invited.â
My heart is racing so hard. I want to drop down on my knees and ask her to marry me all over again. âI love you.â
Her fierce face softens. âI love you, too.â
âAww, hey, lovebirds, where ya been?â Trinity calls out from somewhere behind us.
Hope spins out of my embrace, dropping me like a hot muffler, and races over the gravel. âWeâre engaged,â she shouts, flashing her hand in the air.
Trinity bounces on her toes and claps her hands. When Hope reaches her, the two of them hug, and my chest tightens seeing how close theyâve gotten.
âLemme see!â Trinity gasps.
I watch them ooh and ah over the ring. Even from here, I can see Trinity going into party-planning mode. I give them a f
ew minutes of giggling together before I head their way.
Trinity glances up as I approach. Taking in her glossy eyes, I hesitate. She gives Hopeâs hand a quick squeeze, then throws her arms around me. âIâm so happy for you, Rock-n-Roll.â
Chuckling into her hair, I return the hug. âThanks, sweetheart.â
âWhatâs going on out here?â Wrath questions from the doorway. My gaze flicks to his placid expression, and for a number of reasons, I wonder how heâll take it.
I can see Trinityâs dying to spill our news, but she waits.
Hope flashes her hand at my brother. âWeâre getting married.â
âHoly fuck.â He glances at the snow-covered ground separating us from him then down at his cast. âGet the fuck over here,â he says with an irritated wave of his hand.
She runs up the stairs while Trinity and I hang back for a second. Wrath surprises the fuck out of me by taking her hand and checking out the ring while Hope excitedly chatters away. Then he outright floors me by kissing her forehead and whispering something in her ear that makes her grin.
âAnd thatâs enough of that,â I grumble.
Beside me, Trinity breaks into laughter.
The first thing I do when we get inside is send a text to Sophie, Lilly, and Mara, sharing my good news.
My phone vibrates in my hand instantly.
Lilly.
Itâs hard to understand her through all the screaming. âYou did not just tell me youâre engaged via a group text!â she shouts.
âI did.â
My phone beeps.
Mara.
âIâm so happy for you, sweetheart,â she says softly. âWe need to get together Friday so you can celebrate with your girls. And I need to see Rockâs rock.â She giggles into the phone. âHamiltonâs?â
The place where Sophie orchestrated Rock and me getting together? Yeah, that seems appropriate to celebrate our engagement.
I donât hear back from Sophie until later in the evening. âHope! Iâm sorry. Iâve been crazy all day. Congratulations! Iâm really happy for you guys.â
I recount to her in detail how Rock proposed.
âThatâs so sweet, Hope. Who knew such a scary guy could be so romantic?â she teases. At least I think sheâs teasing. Itâs hard to tell over the phone.