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âWhat about the CIA? I know you worked for them.â
He didnât argue or deny. âTheir priorities change on a whim, leaving agents and civilians out there to hang.â
âWhat about the IRS?â
âEveryone hates the IRS.â
Sheâd give him that one. She kept on naming government agencies, and he continued to tell her what was wrong with each one of them.
âI think Iâve made my case. You know what your biggest problem is?â
âNo, but youâre going to enlighten me, arenât you?â
âUh-huh,â she said. âYou donât like anyone in a position of authority.â
He wasnât offended by her analysis. âYou know what they say. Absolute power corrupts absolutely.â
âThe FBI doesnât have absolute power.â
âThey think they do.â
âYou know what I say?â
âWhat?â
âTherapy. You need intense therapy to help you get rid of your hostility.â
Before he could tell her he hated therapy too, she changed the subject. âI need to get to a phone and call Carrie.â
âWhy didnât you call her from the police station?â
âBecause you would have left without me. I still canât believe you were going to abandon me. I get mad every time I think about it.â
Should he tell her the truth or not? He clenched his jaw while he thought about it. Sheâd sounded so disappointed in him, even hurt.
âLook . . .â he began, and then stopped.
âYes?â
âMaybe I was going to stay.â
âMaybe?â She poked him in his arm. âWhat does that mean?â
âIt means I was gonna stay. Now itâs your turn to squirm. How come you decided to leave your super team?â
âStop calling them that. Iâm sure Agent Knolte and the other agents are quite capable of doing a good job.â
âYeah? Then, I repeat, why did you decide to go with me?â
She shrugged. âI thought about what you said, and I agreed. It isnât smart to put all of us together in the same safe house.â
âAnd?â
âAnd what? Are you waiting for a compliment?â
Before he could tell her the thought hadnât crossed his mind, she said, âOkay, fine. I think I have a better chance of surviving with you.â
âWhat made you cross over to the dark side?â he asked, grinning. âDid Knolte say or do something that turned you into a rogue agent?â
âIâm not an agent. Iâm an analyst, and he didnât say or do anything. I still have complete faith in the Bureau. No one is more loyal than I am.â
âUh-huh,â he said. âSo whyâd you leave?â
She had to think about it for awhile. âIâm taking initiative. Weâre taught to do that at the Bureau.â
âYeah, right,â he scoffed. He nodded toward a sign on the side of the two-lane road. âThereâs a restaurant five miles ahead,â he said. âI need to make a call too and get us some help.â
Mr. Loner was going to ask someone for help? That was a shock.
âThen what?â she asked.
âYou can call Carrie, but donât tell her where weâre headed.â
âHow can I? I donât know where weâre going.â
He picked up the folded paper. âChief Tyler has a cabin a couple of hours away. Itâs got a barn, and I can hide the car inside. Weâll stay there tonight.â
She glanced out the back window once again to make sure they werenât being followed. They hadnât seen another car in a long time, and she realized she was probably being a little paranoid, but she continued to stay on guard. One couldnât be too cautious, she reasoned.
âDo you have any guesses where Monk might be?â
âHeâs probably still in Colorado, and by now heâs heard that your aunt and the judge are still alive.â
âThe FBI will be looking for us too,â she said.
âNot us, sugar. You. Theyâll be looking for you.â
âI turned the shower on in case one of the agents came upstairs, and I locked the dormitory door, but eventually Knolte will find out Iâm gone, and heâll sound the alarm.â
And then all hell was going to break loose. When Carter found out about the situation, heâd have her ass on a platter. She already had her argument rehearsed. Sheâd insist it wasnât insubordination. Carter was tough, but he was also a reasonable man. Surely he would see the merits of her taking initiative . . . again.
âWill the chief tell Knolte he offered you the use of his cabin?â she asked.
âNo, he wonât,â he said. âDid he know you were going out the window?â
âNo.â
John Paul took the exit and pulled into the tarred parking lot adjacent to the restaurant. The neon letters were blinking Open.
âAre you going to tell me about Jilly?â He had avoided bringing up that subject until now because he had seen how Avery reacted when Tyler called the woman her mother. She didnât answer him. âYouâre going to have to tell me what Iâm up against.â
âWhat weâre up against,â she said. âYes, Iâll tell you what I know, but not on an empty stomach. Tomorrow,â she promised, âIâll tell you everything.â
âOkay.â
He took her hand as they walked into the diner. The colors inside made both of them squint. The walls were painted a neon purple and orange as a backdrop to the white Formica countertops. A jukebox sat just inside the door. Elvis Presley was singing âAll Shook Upâ as they made their way down the narrow aisle.
John Paul chose a booth against the wall so he could watch the parking lot. He waited until Avery slid into the orange vinyl seat and then sat down across from her.
The waitress was a teenager, but she shuffled like a ninety-year-old. Her tongue was pierced, which gave her a speech impediment when she spoke.
âWhat can I git ya?â
They ordered turkey sandwiches and iced tea. As soon as the waitress went behind the counter, Avery dug some change out of her billfold and headed for the telephone she had spotted at the end of the aisle, between the menâs and womenâs rest rooms.
The conversation with Carrie was mostly one-sided. Her aunt was in a state. âWhere are you?â she demanded. âWhy arenât you here? Are you all right? Did you hear? Jillyâs alive. The demon faked her own death. I didnât think she was that smart. Sheâs like a cat, Avery. Yeah, thatâs what she is. Do you realize, if you had shown up at the spa when you were supposed to, youâd have been inside that house with us?â
âCarrie, slow down,â Avery said when her aunt finally paused.
Carrie took a deep breath and then told her some of what had happened from the moment sheâd gotten into the car with Monk and the other women. Avery didnât say a word while she listened to the grisly highlights.
âWhen I see you, Iâll tell you everything,â Carrie promised. âHow are you doing?â
âIâm fine.â
âI was so scared and worried about you, but youâre okay.â
âYes, I am,â Avery said, her gaze locked on John Paul. âCarrie, whoâs the agent in charge of watching over you?â
Her aunt spoke at the same time that Avery asked the question. âThey said theyâre going to put us in protective custody. Iâm assuming theyâll fly us to Florida.â
âWhy Florida?â
âBecause of the trial.â
âWhat trial?â
âOh, Avery, you didnât know? That bastard Skarrett has a trial date set. Didnât anyone notify you? They sure as hell didnât call me.â
Avery was stunned by the news. She had known that there was a possibility of a new trial, but she hadnât thought it would happen this soon.
âNo, I wasnât notified.â
Carrie was beside herself. âThey told me this killer Jilly hired wonât stop until weâre dead.â
âOr until we get him,â she said. âAnd we will, Carrie. Now, please, try to calm down. Have
you talked to Tony yet?â
Carrieâs voice mellowed. Sniffling, she whispered, âHeâs beside himself with worry. He wants you to call him as soon as possible so he can hear your voice. I want to go home, Avery, and I want you to come with me, but they wonât let us. I donât even know if theyâll let Tony come stay with me. Iâm trying to cooperateââ
Avery interrupted. âHow is the judge doing?â
âWhat? Oh, Sara. Her nameâs Sara. Sheâs hanging in there. She trashed her knee and had to go to surgery, but sheâs doing okay now. Theyâre keeping her in ICU for another couple of hours because of her age, but thatâs just a precaution. The doctors already let me sit with her and talk to her for a few minutes. Oh, my God, I forgot to tell you. Sara Collins is the judge who sentenced Skarrett.â
âNo, that canât be right. I remember the judge. His name was Hamilton.â
âYes, Judge Hamilton heard the case and convicted Skarrett. We went back to Bel Air once the verdict was in, remember?â
âI remember.â
âBut Skarrett hadnât been sentenced yet. Anyway, Hamilton died, and when Skarrett came up for sentencing, Sara was the judge.â
âSo thatâs the connection,â she said. âBut what about the other woman?â
âAnne Trapp wouldnât go with us. Itâs a long story, and Iâll tell you everything as soon as you get here. Are they going to bring you to the hospital, or will I meet you at the airport? If they want us to fly to Florida, Iâm not going without you. Weâll have three full weeks to catch up before they decide if theyâre going to let us testify or not. If Monk is still on the looseââ
Avery interrupted. âThree weeks? Youâre telling me the new trial will start in just three weeks?â
âYes,â she said. âIâm sure theyâll put us in a safe house near the courthouse so that, if we do get to testify, it will be easier getting us there.â
Avery couldnât compute the information in her head. âAnd youâre saying thereâs a possibility we wonât be allowed to testify?â
âHoney, whatâs the matter with you? Arenât you listening? Yes, there is that possibility that we wonât get to testify. Okay? Weâd be sitting ducks, and it would be a perfect opportunity for Monk to hurt us.â
Avery gripped the phone. âNo one is stopping me from testifying.â
âBe reasonable.â
âDo you want Skarrett to walk?â Her voice shook with her fury.
âYour safety is more important to me.â
âIâm not letting him walk.â
âWeâll have plenty of time to talk about the trial,â Carrie said. âWhy arenât you asking me about Jilly?â
âI donât want to talk about her.â
âI hope when they catch her, I get to have five minutes alone with her.â
âSheâd annihilate you.â
âBut not you, not with all that tai chi and karate stuff you learned.â Carrie sighed. âDonât be afraid of her.â
Avery felt like laughing. After all the hellacious stories sheâd heard about Jilly over the years, she would have to be as crazy as Jilly not to be afraid.
âDid you see her? Was she inside the house?â
âYes,â Carrie answered. âIâll tell you everything when I see you.â
âI want you to promise me that youâll do whatever the agents tell you to do. Okay, Carrie? Promise me.â
âYes, of course I will.â
âDonât make their job . . . difficult. You know how you can get when youâre upset or scared.â
âIâm not scared; Iâm angry. Very, very angry. Why the hell couldnât Jilly stay dead?â
âShe never died,â Avery pointed out.
âThey better not put us in a flea-infested shack while theyâre protecting us. The house is in Florida, so I want something on the beach.â
âCarrie, that isnât your decision.â
âIf itâs not nice, you can pull some strings for us. I canât wait to see you.â
Avery braced herself. Her aunt had a very short fuse when things werenât going her way, and Avery was about to ignite it.
âIâm not going to be joining you. Iâm not going to the safe house withââ
That was as far as she got. Carrieâs scream made her cringe, and she had to move the phone away from her ear.
From where John Paul was seated, he could hear the aunt shouting. The color left Averyâs face as she listened. He got up, walked to the phone, and gently took it from her.
âSay good-bye, sugar.â
âSheâs very upset.â
âUh-huh.â
âI love you, Carrie, and Iâll see you soon,â she said. âBye now.â
She heard Carrie shouting, âAvery Elizabeth, donât you dare hang up thisââ
John Paul placed the phone back in the cradle. âShe sounds nice,â he managed with a straight face.
The waitress was watching them as she placed their plates on the table. Avery pulled away from John Paul and went into the ladiesâ room to wash her hands. By the time she sat down in the booth, he had already devoured his sandwich and was finishing his iced tea.
âI donât want you to get the wrong idea about my aunt. Granted, she can be difficult, but Iâm sure, once you got to know her, youâd love her as much as I do.â
He grinned. âI donât see that happening.â
She took a bite of her turkey sandwich, thought it tasted like pressed sawdust, and picked up her glass of iced tea to wash it down.
âYou want this?â she asked as she pushed the plate toward him.
He pushed it back. âYou need to eat that,â he said as he helped himself to one of the limp potato chips.
She noticed him watching the highway beyond the parking lot. âThey donât get much business here, do they?â
âTheyâre closing in fifteen minutes. Maybe thatâs why weâre the only customers. Tell me something, Avery. When you filled out your application to work for the Bureau, was it your goal to become an agent?â
âYes.â
âThen why didnât you?â
She was about to give him her standard answer, but then decided to be completely honest with him. Besides, she was pretty sure heâd cut through the bull and know she wasnât telling him the truth.
âI thought I should want to be an agent. An FBI agent saved my life, and I think that was when I got it into my head that I wanted to be just like him. You know, save people.â
âSo you were going to save the world. How old were you when you made this momentous decision?â
âTwelve. Iâd just turned twelve.â
âThatâs amazing.â
âWhy?â
âThat you didnât change your mind, that you held on to that goal all through high school and college.â
âDo you remember what you wanted to be when you were young?â
âI donât remember how old I was when I decided it would be pretty cool to be an astronaut. Maybe ten or eleven.â
âThat plan didnât work out?â she asked, teasing.
âLife got in the way,â he said. âI ended up in engineering at Tulane, graduated, and joined the Marines.â
âWhy the Marines?â
âI was drunk.â
She didnât buy it. âTell me the real reason.â
âI thought I could make a difference. I liked the discipline, and I wanted something different than Bowen, Louisiana.â
âBut you live in Bowen now, donât you?â
âYeah, I do,â he said. âI had to go away to realize what I really wanted in life. I actually live outside of Bowen, in the swamp.â
âYou really did drop out of life, didnât you?â
âI like solitude.â
âGuess you donât get much company in the swamp.â
âI like that too. Where did you go to college?â he asked.
âSanta Clara University,â she answered. âThen Stanford.â She took another bite of her sandwich and could barely get t
he horrible food down. The bread was soggy; the lettuce was wilted, and the turkey was dry.
âNeither one of us went very far away. We both stayed close to home. Carrie wanted me to go to college in L.A. so I could work part-time for her company.â
âDoing what?â
She blushed. The instantaneous reaction made him all the more curious.
âShe was pushing me to do more commercials. I got roped into doing one for her when she was in a bind.â
âSo whatâd you have to do in this commercial?â
âHold up a bar of soap, bat my eyelashes, and sing a silly jingle.â
He didnât laugh but he came close. âSing it for me.â
âNo,â she said. âI was awful and I hated it. I guess Iâm an introvert,â she added with a shrug. âSince Iâd had this dream of becoming an agent for so long, Carrie gave in and stopped nagging me. We both gave in actually.â
She pushed her plate to the side, and John Paul reached over and took a couple more potato chips. âHow did you give in?â
She folded her paper napkin just so and placed it on the table. âI did a project at a grade school in San Jose for one of my classes, and I really enjoyed working with the children, so much so that I considered becoming a teacher. I was good with them,â she added, a hint of surprise in her voice. âI even went so far as to take a couple of the classes I would need to get a teaching certificate. I thought I could teach history. I didnât tell Carrie, though.â
âWhy not? What does she have against teachers?â
âNothing. She just didnât want me to become one.â
He leaned back and stared at her. âAvery, what arenât you telling me?â
Ignoring the question, she called out to the waitress to please bring them their bill.
âCome on, babe. Answer me. Why didnât she want you to teach?â
âThe payâs terrible.â
âWhat else?â
âTeachers donât get much respect. You know what they say. Those who can do, and those who canât teach. Carrie didnât think there was much . . . status in teaching. My aunt isnât a shrew,â she said. âI know Iâve made her sound terrible, but she isnât like that. Honest.â
âSo was that all? That was your reason for not teaching? There wasnât enough status?â
âCarrie didnât think it would be a good idea for me to be around kids.â